This night is quiet, but my head is a riot.
12:46 and I’m laying here with a busy mind.
It’s not even important bustle. It’s useless static keeping me awake. I picture my thoughts as layers. I don’t know if it’s normal to be able to ponder multiple things simultaneously, but tonight it’s like they’re stacked. The thoughts are all happening at once, like a theory of everything whirling uncontrollably behind my eyes.
And unfortunately, the Frozen 2 soundtrack is at the base of it.
“Some things never change…”
Did I respond to that email?
My hippo moves out tomorrow.
There’s chicken in the freezer for dinner.
Maybe I should have showered.
“And I’m holding on tight to you…”
I can respond to that email first thing in the morning.
Do they all eventually move out in Animal Crossing?
I should have pulled that chicken out to thaw.
Eh, I can shower after I work out in the morning.
“This will all make sense when I am older…”
Is there a meeting in the morning?
I never finished that DIY recipe.
There’s ground beef in the freezer, too. We could have burgers.
Did I set an alarm to work out?
“INTO THE UNKNOWN!!”
Oh, wait, just my 1:1 meeting is in the morning.
How do I get more elephants to my island?
Wait, we can’t have burgers, I don’t have any buns.
I worked out yesterday, I don’t have to work out tomorrow, right?
“INTO THE UNKNOO-OOWN!”
Did I even set an alarm?
Why was I thinking about Animal Crossing?
“Into the un-KNOOOOOOOOOOWWN!”
Maybe I should write this all down.
Screw it, we’ll order in for dinner.
Why am I still thinking about this?
What time is it?
Elsa! Shut up! I’m trying to sleep!
I wish it was a more profound storm whipping through my brain, but all I have to offer are broken pieces of Frozen 2 lyrics, sporadic Animal Crossing updates, dinner plans, workout and shower thoughts, and vaguely wondering about work.
Sometimes, the thoughts are heavy and philosophical and important as I lay in silent darkness with the minutes ticking by like hours.
But most of the time, it’s a fucking Disney singalong in my head until I somehow knock myself out.